alice's wonderland.

have you ever read,

alice in wonderland?

perhaps you saw the movie

as a child.

maybe it intrigued 

frightened & fascinated

you

all at the same time.

it did me.

but the book...

let's just say...

reading is so much

different that seeing

anyway this quote

found me

today.

the conversation between

alice and the caterpillar:

"Who are you?" 

said the Caterpillar.

This was not 

an encouraging opening 

for a conversation.

Alice replied, 

rather shyly,

"I--I hardly know, Sir,

just at present--at least 

I know who I was when I got

up this morning,

but I think I must

have been changed

several times since then."

"What do you mean by that?"

 said the Caterpillar, sternly. 

"Explain yourself!"

"I can't explain 

myself,

I'm afraid, Sir," 

said Alice,

"because I'm not myself, you see."

and. 

i agree with alice.

sometimes so many changes

can make me feel 

quite confused.

but i like her journey.

she is a brave girl.

until next time,

-n.

photos found from here & here.

find your feet.

it might not feel normal

to be discussing new year 

dreams and resolutions 

in the orangey middle of

october.

so please if you can offer a bit

of forgiveness to this soul...

because i am....

that is, dwelling on 

some particular thoughts and hopes

i held a mere ten months

ago.

one of which was to sit on a 

beach

{in Thailand}

with my feet dug into the sand

feeling the cold tingling 

smoothness

only the insides of beaches

can offer.

to sit on this beach

all day.

to watch sunrise

and sunset.

that was my promise to myself.

the purpose?

to be still and watch the world's

movement.

for just one day.

to appreciate the cycle.

to lay on my back

and if i was very quiet 
and still,

to see  if i could feel

the world's turning.

maybe it's a silly idea.

but then...

it seemed important.

a gift i would give myself.

but here ten months later

instead of standing on the 

beaches of Thailand,

i found myself instead meandering 

amongst the rocks

of the North Shore.

and while there was

no tingling and coolness of the sand,

the earth was still doing its thing.

the sun still greeting and giving.

the moon still brightening and beckoning.

i couldn't help wondering 

about that promise i made to myself

more than 300 days past.

sometimes choices are made that

change all foreseen plans.

sometimes choices are made that

usurp the life you knew.

but when the dust settles if you look

down

you will find your feet.

your trusty feet.

who have carried you

faithfully this far

and won't abandon you yet.

even if you find yourself

standing someplace

you would 

have never imagined.

so just stand on them.

and wait.

the sun will come.

the world will turn.

and the moon with keep you

company.

wherever you find yourself.
whether in Thailand
the North Shore
the office
or the living room.
here's to standing.




- n.

can i show you: perfect?

has perfection ever found you?

perfection in what...??

you may ask.

but i will ask again.

has perfection ever found you?

and perhaps you will answer "yes".

and then i will know.

that you are a friend

of the

North Shore.

it.

is.

perfect.

because not only does the 

rough and craggy 

coastline

of the ocean-like lake

speak of vastness

big skies,

and icy waters.

but also it speaks of 

the absolute

perfection of the small towns

scattered along the coast.

these towns will in fact

capture your heart and imagination.

like the bike store.

come rent a bike.

or the world's best donut shop.

what a claim!

and who can live up to 

such a high claim?

this place.
it can.
and does.
everyday.

but what about the famous

BEN FRANKLIN?

even the fashionable insides

of this town staple

know how to attract the old timers,

the townies, the hunters,

and of course the hipsters...

just put a bird on it.

 

and then there are cafes.

that sell ice cream cones as big

as your face.

you know what is else is perfect?

cabins.

the perfect cabins.

not all people have been to

the perfect cabin.

and so...

let's go together because will take you.

will you join?

when you come in,

perhaps you'll need somewhere

to hang your 

oversized blue sweater.

don't worry!

there is a spot for that.

right here.

then there is the kitchen.

where all things lovely must

be cooked.

and now?

you need a nap you say?

let me show you your

perfect napping locations.

what will you choose?

here?

or the one cushion couch?

the owl will keep you company

while you snooze.

if you are like me.

{which you may or may not be}.

you will want a place

to sit and rest.

and read a whole book.

in one sitting.

this might be a good spot.

to turn the pages one by one.

and if you notice a little dust

or dirt.

you won't fret 

because you will just vrrrroom

it up

with this beauty.

looks fun right?
do you have vacuum envy?
i should think so!

and then you might look out

this window

and discover the smallest

bit of red

beckoning you outside.

but first.

the blue door. 

if you are not careful

it will slap close upon your exit.

so be gentle.

and then you see them.

the berries.

that surround and 

brighten the outsides.

and look.
we are almost finished.
because now there is
nothing else to do.
except sit down.
and enjoy the view.

and now you know.
and now you've seen.
perfection.


i hope {it} finds you.

here i am.

there are few things

that make me feel more alive
and amused
than a coffee cafe in the morning hours.


the people.
oh they are just so priceless.


hearing some rousing
political discussion about
how those "rich people" just don't
want to do their part.


and a concerned exchange
how just
how likely it is that zombies
will take over the world
in the coming years.
and when {not if} they do,
what is it they are wanting?


the leaves are falling purposefully.
the wind defies traffic
sweeping the trees' gifts 
the wrong way down the
one way.


with coffee in hand.
the fingers flying across the keys.
the 1960s grooving
the air.


and...
there is no where else for me
to be
except right here.


so i take my shoes off.
i think i'll stay awhile.
here i am.


where do you find yourself today?
the happiest of fridays to you dear people.