Thursday, October 20, 2011

alice's wonderland.


have you ever read,
alice in wonderland?


perhaps you saw the movie
as a child.
maybe it intrigued 
frightened fascinated
you
all at the same time.

it did me.

but the book...
let's just say...
reading is so much
different that seeing

anyway this quote
found me
today.

the conversation between
alice and the caterpillar:


"Who are you?" 
said the Caterpillar.

This was not 

an encouraging opening 

for a conversation.





Alice replied, 
rather shyly,
"I--I hardly know, Sir,
just at present--at least 
I know who I was when I got
up this morning,
but I think I must
have been changed
several times since then."




"What do you mean by that?"
 said the Caterpillar, sternly. 
"Explain yourself!"

"I can't explain 
myself,
I'm afraid, Sir," 
said Alice,
"because I'm not myself, you see."


and. 
i agree with alice.
sometimes so many changes
can make me feel 
quite confused.

but i like her journey.
she is a brave girl.


until next time,
-n.




photos found from here & here.






Monday, October 17, 2011

find your feet.


it might not feel normal
to be discussing new year 
dreams and resolutions 
in the orangey middle of
october.

so please if you can offer a bit
of forgiveness to this soul...
because i am....
that is, dwelling on 
some particular thoughts and hopes
i held a mere ten months
ago.

one of which was to sit on a 
beach
{in Thailand}
with my feet dug into the sand
feeling the cold tingling 
smoothness
only the insides of beaches
can offer.

to sit on this beach
all day.
to watch sunrise
and sunset.
that was my promise to myself.

the purpose?
to be still and watch the world's
movement.

for just one day.
to appreciate the cycle.
to lay on my back
and if i was very quiet 
and still,
to see  if i could feel
the world's turning.

maybe it's a silly idea.
but then...
it seemed important.
a gift i would give myself.

but here ten months later
instead of standing on the 
beaches of Thailand,
i found myself instead meandering 
amongst the rocks
of the North Shore.

and while there was
no tingling and coolness of the sand,
the earth was still doing its thing.
the sun still greeting and giving.
the moon still brightening and beckoning.

i couldn't help wondering 
about that promise i made to myself
more than 300 days past.

sometimes choices are made that
change all foreseen plans.
sometimes choices are made that
usurp the life you knew.

but when the dust settles if you look
down
you will find your feet.

your trusty feet.
who have carried you
faithfully this far
and won't abandon you yet.

even if you find yourself
standing someplace
you would 
have never imagined.








so just stand on them.
and wait.
the sun will come.
the world will turn.
and the moon with keep you
company.



wherever you find yourself.
whether in Thailand
the North Shore
the office
or the living room.
here's to standing.




- n.




Sunday, October 16, 2011

can i show you: perfect?



has perfection ever found you?
perfection in what...??
you may ask.

but i will ask again.
has perfection ever found you?
and perhaps you will answer "yes".
and then i will know.
that you are a friend
of the

it.
is.
perfect.

because not only does the 
rough and craggy 
coastline
of the ocean-like lake
speak of vastness
big skies,
and icy waters.

but also it speaks of 
the absolute
perfection of the small towns
scattered along the coast.


these towns will in fact
capture your heart and imagination.
like the bike store.



come rent a bike.

or the world's best donut shop.
what a claim!
and who can live up to 
such a high claim?


this place.
it can.
and does.
everyday.

but what about the famous
BEN FRANKLIN?
even the fashionable insides
of this town staple
know how to attract the old timers,
the townies, the hunters,
and of course the hipsters...
just put a bird on it.

 

and then there are cafes.
that sell ice cream cones as big
as your face.


you know what is else is perfect?
cabins.
the perfect cabins.

not all people have been to
the perfect cabin.

and so...
let's go together because will take you.
will you join?

when you come in,
perhaps you'll need somewhere
to hang your 
oversized blue sweater.
don't worry!
there is a spot for that.
right here.


then there is the kitchen.
where all things lovely must
be cooked.








and now?
you need a nap you say?
let me show you your
perfect napping locations.


what will you choose?
here?


or the one cushion couch?


the owl will keep you company
while you snooze.


if you are like me.
{which you may or may not be}.
you will want a place
to sit and rest.
and read a whole book.
in one sitting.
this might be a good spot.
to turn the pages one by one.


and if you notice a little dust
or dirt.
you won't fret 
because you will just vrrrroom
it up
with this beauty.


looks fun right?
do you have vacuum envy?
i should think so!

and then you might look out
this window
and discover the smallest
bit of red
beckoning you outside.


but first.
the blue door. 
if you are not careful
it will slap close upon your exit.
so be gentle.


and then you see them.
the berries.
that surround and 
brighten the outsides.





and look.
we are almost finished.
because now there is
nothing else to do.
except sit down.
and enjoy the view.






and now you know.
and now you've seen.
perfection.


i hope {it} finds you.









Friday, October 14, 2011

here i am.

there are few things




that make me feel more alive
and amused
than a coffee cafe in the morning hours.


the people.
oh they are just so priceless.


hearing some rousing
political discussion about
how those "rich people" just don't
want to do their part.


and a concerned exchange
how just
how likely it is that zombies
will take over the world
in the coming years.
and when {not if} they do,
what is it they are wanting?


the leaves are falling purposefully.
the wind defies traffic
sweeping the trees' gifts 
the wrong way down the
one way.


with coffee in hand.
the fingers flying across the keys.
the 1960s grooving
the air.


and...
there is no where else for me
to be
except right here.


so i take my shoes off.
i think i'll stay awhile.
here i am.


where do you find yourself today?
the happiest of fridays to you dear people.