creating. for sarah

 sometimes there is this rustling. this stirring within me that will not quite quiet down. no matter how hard i try to insist that it should. the desire to create.

to create

something beautiful.

it was my friend sarah's birthday.

and i wanted to give her something special.

create.for.her.

one time we were walking and i was wearing a headband that i had knitted. she admired it.

since sarah is very talented with her hands, i took the compliment.

maybe, said sarah, you will make something for me.

i will wear anything you make natalie.

i started with a scane of green yarn.

one tree button.

some size 10 round bamboo needles.

the weepies.

some scrape yarn.

and i got started.

 

it took many frustrated attempts. i tried to follow varying patterns online, but nothing was turning out like i desired. 

i tried this and that. then i tried it again. then something new. and once again. but finally something started to work. and i just let the needles lead.

sometimes it's easier like that.

 

i have to always remind myself.

unfortunately.

that it is about the process.

because it is in the process that we learn.

things that we might never have known before.

for some it comes easily. 

this creating thing.

for others it does not.

i lack confidence.

but i shouldn't have.

because i loved the green headband.

and the burgondy flower made from scrapes.

and the tree button.

 

and so did sarah.