it might not feel normal
to be discussing new year
dreams and resolutions
in the orangey middle of
october.
so please if you can offer a bit
of forgiveness to this soul...
because i am....
that is, dwelling on
some particular thoughts and hopes
i held a mere ten months
ago.
one of which was to sit on a
beach
{in Thailand}
with my feet dug into the sand
feeling the cold tingling
smoothness
only the insides of beaches
can offer.
to sit on this beach
all day.
to watch sunrise
and sunset.
that was my promise to myself.
the purpose?
to be still and watch the world's
movement.
for just one day.
to appreciate the cycle.
to lay on my back
and if i was very quiet
and still,
to see if i could feel
the world's turning.
maybe it's a silly idea.
but then...
it seemed important.
a gift i would give myself.
but here ten months later
instead of standing on the
beaches of Thailand,
i found myself instead meandering
amongst the rocks
of the North Shore.
and while there was
no tingling and coolness of the sand,
the earth was still doing its thing.
the sun still greeting and giving.
the moon still brightening and beckoning.
i couldn't help wondering
about that promise i made to myself
more than 300 days past.
sometimes choices are made that
change all foreseen plans.
sometimes choices are made that
usurp the life you knew.
but when the dust settles if you look
down
you will find your feet.
your trusty feet.
who have carried you
faithfully this far
and won't abandon you yet.
even if you find yourself
standing someplace
you would
have never imagined.
so just stand on them.
and wait.
the sun will come.
the world will turn.
and the moon with keep you
company.
wherever you find yourself.
whether in Thailand
the North Shore
the office
or the living room.
here's to standing.
- n.
